Sometimes the questions

are simple but the answers are difficult- Dr. Seuss

"What Happenned?
Its a long story."

For some reason

when life overwhelms me and i just can't handle it, i just cant verbally express my problems. no matter how much i trust u. no matter how much i know u want to help me. no matter how much i know could probably assist me. no matter how much im dying on the inside. i just cant speak out my troubles. i always had this thing that when any type of problem occurs i try to figure it off by myself or get over it and try finding the bright sides to the problem. Most of the time there isnt a bright side to the situation but i still overcome the problem over time. Ah in my life there isnt One moment where im not thinking. im Always thinking about something varying from friends my life or what can come. the thing is when im sad i dont like people to worry to much about me because i dont want to burden their time. if i was sad id want to keep all that frustration with myself and not let it spread to other people. knowing when other people are disappointed just makes me more disappointed. i have always been a listener my whole life. and without a doubt i wouldnt ever mind lending anyone an ear or a shoulder to cry on. at an early age i pretty much figured out the whole emotions thing. i can relate to most people i guess. even if the problem hasnt occured to me before i try to see what they are going through and try to see what its like to be in that state. ive always looked to both sides of a problem my whole life and i thnk thats a good thing right? well anyways for some reason i feel like im my own shoulder to cry on. and im really sorry to all those who try to help me but to tell u the truth the best thing to do is be with me. in most cases there are two choices : maybe they want to talk about it or maybe they need alone time. in my case i dont want to talk about it until im done being sad or done thinking about it and i know i wont cry when verbally saying it to someone and if i am sad the best thing u could do is stay there and sit next to me. i feel more sad on the inside when im definately hurt and someone just says she needs time to be alone and leaves. i understand that why should u stay if im not going to speak about whats bothering me but just having someone sitting next to me makes me feel much better on the inside knowing someones there. im sorry to all those who really try to help me and u dont know how much i appreciate that but i guess ive always been kind of independent with my problems my whole life and im not really subject for change.


Over Time

In my own personal opinion the one of the most important things life can give is TIME. just like happiness, love, success, or materialistic possessions. Without a doubt all those things are Really important to me but you can't have any of those without time itself. How can you find your lover with only a day to search? How can you find happiness after a loved one passed away? How can you find success if you never failed or worked for it in Time? How can you find anything if all you have is one minute one day one second to live. If you think about it, if u lived on earth for only two minutes how can you find or experience love or happiness. well you might be able to but without more time how can u expand what u found. the thing is the more time u have, the better you can make out of yourself and learn from your mistakes and most importantly Move on. Ugh this probably doesnt make sense to anyone whose reading this but it makes perfect sense to me.

Hm
well manny pacquiao won in his match against miguel cotto. YEEEE (: Filipino Filipino Filipino! no kidding. ahahah well U finally included me in ure blog after the Longest time mandy (: ahahah u know that really made my day I love knowing i could actually help someone it makes me feel useful to life x] sorry if im being all gloomy x]

"I need a shoulder to cry on. Since ALLYSA asked me to put her in my blog, I will. Now. Truth is, I think Allysa is someone anyone can easily talk to. It's like she understands what you're going through and everything. I don't think I can talk to anyone else about my problems except her.. it's not awkward and she listens. And unlike anyone else, I think I would be okay crying in front of her. I guess everyone has their 'easiest person to talk to' buddy. And mine would be Allysa (:"

Awh Mandy :D AHAHA i love ure random texts every once in while saying something like
i found underware in my car :o
a bee flew in my car :o
i found some eye candy :o
there was this cute guy :o
ahahaha its always takes place in a car or about a guy x] ure cute.
ahahah theres this saying
"If a guy calls u hot hes looking at your body
If a guy calls u cute hes looking at your face
If a guy calls u beautiful hes looking at your heart"
thats cute :] but what does a girl say to a guy to say shes looking at ure heart? cause i cant call miguel beautiful thatd be awkward x] is it handsome? i think if a girl calls a guy handsome shes looking at his hair or clothes x] well thats just me hahaha Oh i just had this flashback to a day when my parents were in a horrible arguement a while ago and u know guhrace h? shew NEVER answers her phone but for some reason when i really couldnt handle the problem itself she answered the phone at the time i really needed her. thanks hun <3 I really think everything happens for a reason although most of the time u will never know why the reason is it ends up good. and im thankful for that.

thAnks to those who read the whole thing HAHAHAHAHA

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OMFG my parents argue so damn much its already 10:30 and theyre still arguing WTF